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Tuesday, 02 September 2008

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    Under My Skin
    By Avril Lavigne
    Slipped Away
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     Why do some people live and some die? Because the ones who lost someone can help others survive the same pain. I lost my brother in Iraq. He left on my 17th birthday and was killed 3 weeks before he was supposed to come home on R&R on May 23. It is a day I will never forget because I was home alone when the uniformed soldiers came to my house to tell my mom. My mom wasn't home and I didn't know what to do. I had no way to go anywhere and I put myself in denial because I didn't want to believe my brother was gone. Then about 4 hours later my godparents came down to my house and my godmother sat me down in a chair and made me look her in the eyes and said " bubby didn't make it, his plane to Germany was delayed because of a sand storm and he didn't make it to the hospital in Germany." All I could say was "no" over and over again I didn't want to believe it because Kyle was the only older brother out of 3 that was ever really there for me and we were close. I'll always remember whenever he called he would always call me puddin' it's a nickname I was given a few years ago and I can never be called that name without hearing him call me that.. 

    The week of the Funeral was the hardest week of my life and I don't think I would have literally survived if it wasn't for my friend Kayla being there with me all the time, the whole week and I will never be able to repay her for being there for me and there is no amount of words that could say how much it meant to me. She literally kept me hanging on to life that week. When a solider dies in Iraq they fly the bodies to Maryland to do the autopsy. On Monday, June 2nd they flew my brothers' body in from Maryland and his body was escorted by my cousin Jamie who is also serving in Iraq. It wasn't real to me, I didn't believe my brother was really dead till his flag draped coffin was taken out of the plain. Tuesday and Wednesday went by in a blur yet at the time it seemed like forever. I don't even remember most of those two days. But June 4th is engraved in my memory. It was the day of his funeral. It was the hardest day out of the whole week, the day my brother my eternal hero was laid to rest.  Kyle did what he wanted to do. Joined the army and fought in the war and there is not a day that goes by that I don't miss him.


                        Rest In Peace                     

                        Kyle P. Norris                   

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                 100_4020

        January 25, 1986 ~ May 23, 2008   

                     72573971   

Friday, 23 February 2007

  • Some songs that I love

    Grim Goodbye

    Oh my eyes
    oh closing slowly

    Don't you try to take me down,
    don't you try to take me over,
    won't you try to break me?

    The complexities moving in,
    and I feel that I do not have the strength,
    tragedies plaguing me solemnly
    It's affecting my will

    But wait, now that I've found you,
    situations from dark now change to gray
    Disregarding my absence of memories,
    it's perpetually blinding me of sanity,
    and just when I'm giving in,
    as I try to scale these walls
    Jericho falls around me
    and I feel that I've strayed too long

    And darkness is fading in, and darkness is real

    Oh my eyes
    oh closing slowly
    I try

    Fate seems to recreate,
    I just cannot escape,
    Something holds me down and makes me
    act a way I can't explain
    Even now I can feel it coming over me choking me,
    as I'm falling behind
    You can say you know me,
    but you have no clue what my dreams could show you

    And darkness is fading in, and darkness is real

    Oh my eyes
    oh closing slowly
    I try

    I
    Can't
    Can't win
    ...Tell me what you see.

    I feel something deep inside me,
    I feel deep inside...me!
    I feel something deep inside me
    and I can't let this go, whoa, (can't let this go)
    I feel something deep inside me
    and I can't let this go, whoa,

    Lie, as I try to steer clear, and I try to stay sober
    This is taking me over,
    And my dreams complicate it...

    I just cannot let this go
    I tried so many times to tell you
    I just I cannot let this go,
    I just cannot win

    I see you
    I see you...you falling away
    I see you...you
    You... killing me softly
    I see you...you falling away
    I see you...you...you

    Don't take what's in front of me,
    open eyes can see I have everything
    Tell you, don't take what's in front of me,
    tell you, don't take what's in me

    Lie, which one lied?
    When I feel this come away,
    Way-ooahh
    that's why I try...lie

    [Crowd singing]
    Whoaa..ohh..ohhh...

    I see you coming my way
    dreams may fall more everyday
    But I see you looking my way

    And I've tried just to separate dreams from reality
    Try to satisfy this wanting,
    Try to stay righteous, try to stay sober,
    but then, I can't win

    And I know you, and I know you, and I know you...

    Lie!


    Misery Loves Its Company


    Listen close as we wait for a sound to go

    It's true, we are
    we are destined to fail
    It's true, we are
    we are destined to fail

    There is a problem here with our society
    The absence of my tears is my sobriety
    I have a growing fear and you're not helping me
    Am I the only one who realizes it's true?

    Beat but I'm not broken
    Guide me through with your hand
    Lead with your words spoken
    Show me how to listen

    You're persecuting me, showing hypocrisy
    I have a remedy for your insecurity
    It's all the same, sadly, nobody works for free
    Am I the only one who realizes it's true

    Beat but I'm not broken
    Guide me through with your hand
    Lead with your words spoken
    Show me how to listen

    Let your light shine through me
    Take this hate I can't release
    Help me make the blind see
    Misery loves its company

    When I dream, I see dawn turn into dusk, into dusk

    Beat but I'm not broken
    Guide me through with your hand
    Lead with your words spoken
    Show me how to listen

    Let your light shine through me
    Take this hate I can't release
    Help me make the blind see
    Misery loves its company

    It's true, we are
    we are destined to fail
    It's true, we are
    we are destined to fail


    Angels Cry

    Well it's hard to explain but I'll try if you let me
    Well its hard to sustain
    I'll cry if you let me
    This doesn't change the way I feel about you or your place in my life
    (please don't cry)
    Can't you see I'm dying here?
    A shot of broken heart that is chased with fear

    Angels cry when stars collide
    I can't eat and I can't breathe
    I wouldn't want it any other way

    Intentions that were pure have turned obscure
    Seconds into hours
    Minutes into years
    Don't ask me why
    (please don't cry)
    I cant tell you lies

    Angels cry when stars collide
    I can't eat and I can't breathe
    I wouldn't want it any other way.
    [repeat]

    My heart burns through
    My chest to the floor
    Tearing me silently although abruptly
    Words cant hide as I'm taking you home
    And I tried to see
    Tried to understand your words as I'm taking you home

    Angels cry when stars collide
    I can't eat and I can't breathe
    I wouldn't want it any other way
    [repeat]

    In Fate's Hands

    I remember a year ago I was standing in the crowd
    waiting for my chance to break through, my chance to live again.
    Now it seems I've found some friends who finally understand
    what it takes to make this dream come true, we'll be here till the end.

    Shake it, break it, get off your feet,
    come dance with me and don't you fake it.
    Shake it, break it, get off your feet,
    get close to me and don't you fake it.

    Shout and scream my friends, connect with me and we'll pretend
    this night will never end (whao oh) this night will never end.
    Just let go you'll see together we'll do anything
    this night will never end (whao oh) this night will never end.

    Shake it, break it, get off your feet,
    come dance with me and don't you fake it.
    Shake it, break it, get off your feet,
    get close to me and don't you fake it.

    Oh, wish I could thank you all for what you have done
    and all of the things that you have shared with me.
    Oh, wish I could take you all to where I must go
    wish I could take you all, I'll take you in my arms.

    Dance, get on the floor, shake, get on the floor, break, get on the floor
    [repeat]

    Shake it, break it, get off your feet,
    come dance with me and don't you fake it.
    Shake it, break it, get off your feet,
    get close to me and don't you fake it.

    I'm reaching out here to show you what we've been through
    I think there's something we can share, that's completely new
    or maybe I'm just insane, whao oh
    Shake it, break it, get off your feet


    Waiting


    Feeling sorrow
    for all the things you had to steal and borrow.
    Bring back the days we had before tomorrow
    relapse and then collapse into yourself once more.

    Waiting for this life to change seems like it's taking me forever
    and I can't hold on. This light is breaking into the day
    This life is going to change seems like it's taking me forever
    And I can't hold on. This light is breaking into the day

    Void I can't fill.
    The doctor tells me to relax and stand still
    Prescribes me a new pill to quell my anger.
    Wish I could make her pull herself up off the floor

    Waiting for this life to change seems like it's taking me forever
    and I can't hold on. This light is breaking into the day
    This life is going to change seems like it's taking me forever
    And I can't hold on. This light is breaking into the day
    Again, into the day, again

    Waiting for this life to change seems like it's taking me forever
    and I can't hold on. This light is breaking into the day
    This life is going to change seems like it's taking me forever
    And I can't hold on. This light is breaking into the day

    Take time to contemplate who you are and where you want to go.
    [x2]

    Into the day


    False Pretense

    Oh, it's time to let it go

    The world's got a funny way of turning 'round on you
    When a friend tries to stab you right in the face
    Losing faith in everything I thought I hoped I knew
    Don't sweat it, {it was} set on false pretense

    Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change
    And it doesn't seem likely to fade
    Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change
    Cu-cu-cu-cuz you know...

    It's sacrifice
    False pretense you'll hurt again
    Stop pretending to deny
    False pretense you'll hurt again

    All along you know you thought you got the best of me
    {But} you were wrong and I'm laughing right in your face
    I cannot believe you claimed you were my family
    Don't sweat it - it's set on false pretense

    Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change
    And it doesn't seem likely to fade
    Betrayed but not gonna be willing to change
    Cu-cu-cu-cuz you know...

    It's sacrifice
    False pretense you'll hurt again
    Stop pretending to deny
    False pretense you'll hurt again

    Oh, it's time to let it go

    I can't seem to understand it how you turned out to be so cold
    You tried but were caught red handed, are you happy with your role?
    It's funny to me how you've turned into such a joke...

    It's sacrifice
    False pretense you'll hurt again
    Stop pretending to deny
    False pretense you'll hurt again

    So play the game until you run out
    And play the game into my hand



    Seventeen Ain't So Sweet


    Well she never was the best
    Yeah at following the trends
    Stayed one step above the rest
    And even though it seemed

    Like the world was crashing on her
    Didn't let it hold her down
    Didn't hold her back oh no

    Don't worry you'll show them

    [Chorus:]
    There's a fire in your eyes
    And I hope you'll let it burn
    There's a scream in your voice
    And I hope you will be heard
    There's a fire in your eyes
    And I hope you'll let it burn
    Until you're heard, you're heard

    Seventeen is just a test
    Yeah and I would recommend
    That you live with no regrets
    And even if it seems

    Like the world is crashing on you
    You shouldn't let it hold you down
    Shouldn't hold you back oh no, woah oh

    Don't worry you'll show them

    [Chorus]

    Relax girl, turn down the lights
    No one can see you shining
    Relax girl, it'll be alright
    No one can stop you if you try

    Point of rhythm is to follow it in time
    To listen to the beating in your mind
    Remember if you seek then you shall find
    Woah oh

    [Chorus x2]
    ...until you're heard...

    How To Save A Life

    Step one you say we need to talk
    He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
    He smiles politely back at you
    You stare politely right on through
    Some sort of window to your right
    As he goes left and you stay right
    Between the lines of fear and blame
    And you begin to wonder why you came

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life

    Let him know that you know best
    Cause after all you do know best
    Try to slip past his defense
    Without granting innocence
    Lay down a list of what is wrong
    The things you've told him all along
    And pray to God he hears you
    And pray to God he hears you

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life

    As he begins to raise his voice
    You lower yours and grant him one last choice
    Drive until you lose the road
    Or break with the ones you've followed
    He will do one of two things
    He will admit to everything
    Or he'll say he's just not the same
    And you'll begin to wonder why you came

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life

    How to save a life
    How to save a life

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life

    Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
    Somewhere along in the bitterness
    And I would have stayed up with you all night
    Had I known how to save a life

    How to save a life


    Fall Away

    You swear you recall nothing at all
    That could make you come back down
    You made up your mind to leave it all behind
    Now you're forced to fight it out

    You fall away from your past
    But it's following you
    You fall away from your past
    But it's following you

    You left something undone, it's now your rerun
    It's the one you can't erase
    You should have made it right, so you wouldn't have to fight
    To put a smile back on your face

    You fall away from your past
    But it's following you
    You fall away from your past
    But it's following you
    You fall away
    You fall away

    Something I've done that I can't outrun
    Something I've done that I can't outrun
    Maybe you should wait maybe you should run
    But there's something you've said that can't be undone

    And you fall away from your past
    But It's following you
    You fall away from your past
    But It's following you
    You fall away from your past
    But It's following you
    You fall away from your past
    But It's following you

    [x3]
    You fall away
    It's following you

    You fall away



    Dead Wrong

    If only I knew what I know
    I'd make it a point to say so
    To everyone that got me here
    And everyone that made it

    Clear I was dead wrong all along
    You said it for my sake
    That I would not lose my way
    When I was astray ...

    I'm doing the best that I could.
    Trying my best to be understood
    Maybe I'm changing slowly
    I get out, turn around.....

    Knew I was dead wrong all along
    You said it for my sake
    that I would not lose my way
    When I was dead wrong all along

    Mine is not a new story
    Mine is not a new story
    Mine is nothing new
    But it is for me

    So I was dead wrong all along
    You said it for my sake
    That you thought I'd lost my way
    When I was dead wrong all along
    You said it for my sake
    That I would not lose my way

    Did I really lose my way
    Or are you afraid


    It's Not Over

    My tears run down like razorblades
    And no, I'm not the one to blame
    It's you ' or is it me?
    And all the words we never say
    Come out and now we're all ashamed
    And there's no sense in playing games
    When you've done all you can do

    But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
    We had the chance to make it
    Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
    I wish that I could take it back
    But it's over

    I lose myself in all these fights
    I lose my sense of wrong and right
    I cry, I cry
    It's shaking from the pain that's in my head
    I just wanna crawl into my bed
    And throw away the life I led
    But I won't let it die, but I won't let it die

    But now it's over, it's over, why is it over?
    We had the chance to make it
    Now it's over, it's over, it can't be over
    I wish that I could take it back

    I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
    Don't say this won't last forever
    You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
    Don't tell me that we will never be together
    We could be, over and over
    We could be, forever

    I'm falling apart, I'm falling apart
    Don't say this won't last forever
    You're breaking my heart, you're breaking my heart
    Don't tell me that we will never be together
    We could be, over and over
    We could be, forever

    It's not over, it's not over, it's never over
    Unless you let it take you
    It's not over, it's not over, it's not over
    Unless you let it break you
    It's not over

    It's Not Over

    I was blown away what could I say
    It all seemed to make sense
    You’ve taken away everything
    And I can’t do without
    I try to see the good in life
    But good things in life are hard to find

    (Chorus)
    Blow it away, Blow it away
    Can we make this something goooood
    Well I'll try to do it right this time around
    Let’s start oveeerr
    I'll try to do it right this time around
    Its not oveeerr
    There’s a part of me that’s dead and in the ground
    This love is killing me, but you’re the only one
    Its not overrrrr
    (Chorus)

    Taken all I could take and I cannot wait
    Were wasting to much time
    Being strong holding on
    Cant let it bring us down
    My life with you means everything
    So I won’t give up that easily

    (Chorus)
    Blow it Away, Blow it Away
    Can we make this something gooood
    Cause its all misunderstoooood
    Well I'll try to do it right this time around
    Let’s start over
    I'll try to do it right this time around
    It’s not over
    Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground
    This love is killing me
    But you’re the only one
    It’s not oveeeerrr
    (Chorus)

    We can’t let this get away
    Let it out, let it out
    Don’t get caught up in yourself
    Let it ouuuuttttt

    (Chorus)
    Let’s start over
    I'll try to do it right this time around
    It’s not over
    Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground
    This love is killing me
    But you’re the only one
    It’s not oveeer
    Let’s start oveeeerrr
    Its not oveeerr, Oh yeah, yeah!
    This love is killing me
    But you’re the only one
    It’s not oveeerrrr.....

    Over You

    Now that it’s all said and done
    I can’t believe you were the one
    To build me up and tear me down
    Like an old abandoned house
    What you said when you left
    Just left me cold and out of breath
    I fell too far, was in way too deep
    Guess I let you get the best of meeee

    (Chorus)
    Well I never saw it coming
    I should have started running
    A long, long time agooo!
    And I never thought I’d doubt you
    I’m better off without you
    More than you, more than you know
    I’m slowly getting closure
    I guess it’s really over
    I’m finally gettin’ better
    Now I’m picking up the pieces
    From spending all of these years
    Putting my heart back together
    ‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
    I got over you!!!
    (End Chorus)

    You took a hammer to these walls
    Dragged the memories down the hall
    Packed your bags and walked away
    There was nothing I could say,
    And when you slammed the front door shut
    A lot of other’s opened up
    So did my eyes so I could see
    That you never were the best for meee

    (Chorus)
    Well I never saw it coming
    I should have started running
    A long, long time agooo!
    And I never thought I’d doubt you
    I’m better off without you
    More than you, more than you know
    I’m slowly getting closure
    I guess it’s really over
    I’m finally getting’ better
    Now I’m picking up the pieces
    From spending all of these years
    Putting my heart back together
    ‘Cause the day I thought I’d never get through
    I got over you!!!
    (End Chorus)

    I never saw it coming
    I should have started running
    A long, long time agooo
    And I never thought I’d doubt you
    I’m better off without you

    And I never saw it coming
    I should have started running
    I’m finally getting better
    Now I’m picking up the pieces
    From spending all of these years
    Putting my heart back together
    And I got over you!!!
    And I got over you!!!
    And I got over you!!!

    The day I thought I’d never get through
    I got over you…

    Crashed

    Well I was moving at the speed of sound.
    Head-spinning, couldn't find my way around, and
    Didn't know that I was going down.
    Yeah, yeah.
    Where I've been, well it's all a blur.
    What I was looking for, I'm not sure.
    Too late and didn't see it coming.
    Yeah, yeah.

    And then I crashed into you,
    And I went up in flames.
    Could've been the death of me,
    But then you breathed your breath in me.
    And I crashed into you,
    Like a runaway train.
    You will consume me,
    But I can't walk away.

    Somehow, I couldn't stop myself.
    I just wanted to know how it felt.
    Too strong, I couldn't hold on.
    Yeah, yeah.
    Now I'm just tryin' to make some sense
    Out of how and why this happened.
    Where we're heading, there's just no knowing.
    Yeah, yeah.

    And then I crashed into you,
    And I went up in flames.
    Could've been the death of me,
    But then you breathed your breath in me.
    And I crashed into you,
    Like a runaway train.
    You will consume me,
    But I can't walk away.

    From your face, your eyes
    Are burning to me.
    You saved me, you gave me
    Just what I need.
    Oh, just what I need.

    And then I crashed into you,
    And I went up in flames.
    Could've been the death of me,
    But then you breathed your breath in me.
    And I crashed into you,
    Like a runaway train.
    You will consume me,
    But I can't walk away.

    And then I crashed into you,
    And then I crashed into you,
    And then I crashed into you,
    And then I crashed into you,
    And I crashed into you,
    Like a runaway train.
    You will consume me,
    But I can't walk away

    What I Want

    It always seemed that I was sorry for the things that I did,
    But never did a thing about it 'til I let you in.
    It's kinda funny about the time that I was falling apart.
    You came and put me back together, now.

    'Cause what I want
    And what I need
    Has now become the same thing
    You've been offering.
    As days go by,
    I've finally become what you want me to be.

    I still remember all the stupid things that I've said and done,
    But still, you stuck around with me when all your friends said, "Run!"
    Givin' me a name, I found myself inside all the flames.
    Becoming everything for you again.

    What I want
    And what I need
    Has now become the same thing
    You've been offering.
    As days go by,
    I've finally become what you want me to be.

    Don't tell me you saw it all along.
    God help me, I never knew it alone.
    Guess I was wrong.

    What I want
    And what I need
    Has now become the same thing
    You've been offering.
    As days go by,
    I've finally become what you want me to be.

    And what I need
    Has now become the same thing
    You've been offering.
    You've taken me,
    And shaped me to become what you want me to be


    Breakdown

    Open up the book you beat me with again.
    Read it off one sentence at a time.
    I'm tired of all the lines,
    Convictions and your lies.
    What right do you have to point at me?

    Well, I'm sitting alone thinking about it all over coffee.
    And still crowdin' my space are the things you still hold against me.
    You cannot save me.

    Well, it's not the time to breakdown.
    It's not the time to breakdown.
    It's not the time to break up this love,
    Keep it together now.
    It's not the time to break.

    Read it all, no need for separating here.
    You see what you want and try to justify.
    All your little lines,
    Convictions and your lies.
    What right do you have to point at me?

    Well, I'm sitting alone thinking about it all over coffee.
    And still crowdin' my space are the things you still hold against me.
    You cannot save me.

    Well, it's not the time to breakdown.
    It's not the time to breakdown.
    It's not the time to break up this love,
    Keep it together now.
    It's not the time to break.

    Open up the book you beat me with again.
    Read it off one sentence at a time.

    Well, it's not the time to breakdown.
    Well, it's not the time to breakdown.
    Well, it's not the time to breakdown.
    Well, it's not the time to breakdown.
    Well, it's not the time to break up this love,
    Keep it together now.
    Well, it's not the time to break,
    Breakdown

    There And Back Again

    Take, take your time.
    Smell the roses, but steal the vines.
    Don't wait for the hands of time
    To second guess and change your mind.
    And shine.
    Here's your moment to shine.
    Shine.

    Lay down, my friend.
    Close your eyes, breathe in,
    And I'll take you there and back again.
    No more questions why.
    I'm not so surprised
    Why you have
    Been there and back again.

    Replace, replace that line
    That spoke to you
    And showed no signs to be alive.
    So are you livin' or dead?
    You have made a choice to hear your voice
    Or hold on to what they said.
    Now, shine.
    Here's your moment to shine.
    Shine.

    Lay down, my friend.
    Close your eyes, breathe in,
    And I'll take you there and back again.
    No more questions why.
    I'm not so surprised
    Why you have
    Been there and back again.

    Back again, back again.
    Back again, back again.

    Lay down, my friend.
    Close your eyes, breathe in,
    And I'll take you there and back again.
    No more questions why.
    I'm not so surprised
    Why you have
    Been there and back again.

    Lay down, my friend.
    Close your eyes, breathe in,
    And I will take you there and back again.
    No more questions why.
    I'm not so surprised
    Why you have
    Been there and back again

    What About Now

    Shadows fill an empty heart
    As love is fading,
    From all the things that we are
    But are not saying.
    Can we see beyond the scars
    And make it to the dawn?

    Change the colors of the sky.
    And open up to
    The ways you made me feel alive,
    The ways I loved you.
    For all the things that never died,
    To make it through the night,
    Love will find you.

    What about now?
    What about today?
    What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
    What if our love never went away?
    What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
    Baby, before it's too late,
    What about now?

    The sun is breaking in your eyes
    To start a new day.
    This broken heart can still survive
    With a touch of your grace.
    Shadows fade into the light.
    I am by your side,
    Where love will find you.

    What about now?
    What about today?
    What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
    What if our love, it never went away?
    What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
    Baby, before it's too late,
    What about now?

    Now that we're here,
    Now that we've come this far,
    Just hold on.
    There is nothing to fear,
    For I am right beside you.
    For all my life,
    I am yours.

    What about now?
    What about today?
    What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
    What if our love never went away?
    What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

    What about now?
    What about today?
    What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
    What if our love never went away?
    What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
    Baby, before it's too late,
    Baby, before it's too late,
    Baby, before it's too late,
    What about now?


    Sorry

    Will you listen to my story
    It’ll just be a minute
    How can I explain
    Whatever happened here never meant to hurt you
    How can I cause you so much pain
    When I say I’m sorry
    Will you believe me
    Listen to my story
    Say you won’t leave me
    When I say I’m sorry
    Can you forgive me
    When I say I will always be there
    Will you believe, will you believe in me
    All the words that I come up with
    They’re like gasoline on flames
    There’s no excuse, no explanation
    Believe me if I could undo what I did wrong
    I’d give away all that I own
    When I say I’m sorry
    Will you believe me
    Listen to my story
    Say you won’t leave me
    When I say I’m sorry
    Can you forgive me
    When I say I will always be there
    Will you believe
    If I told you I’ve been cleanin’ my soul
    And If I promise you I’ll regain control
    Will you open your door
    And let me in take me for who I am
    And not for who I’ve been, who I’ve been
    When I say I’m sorry
    Will you believe me
    Listen to my story
    Say you won’t leave me
    When I say I’m sorry
    Can your forgive me
    When I say I will always be there
    Will you believe me
    When I say I’m sorry
    When I say I’m sorry
    When I say I’m sorry
    When I say I’m sorry
    When I say I’m sorry
    Can you forgive me
    When I say I will always be there
    Will you believe

Sunday, 11 February 2007

  • Currently Listening
    Breakaway
    By Kelly Clarkson
    Addicted
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    Okay well let's see last night I went to ISF in Pennsylvania and then stayed the night with Kayla which was soooooooo much fun, me and her actually had a chance to talk to each other about things we haven't before well in detail at least. and I'm still being driven crazy over evenything with Ben LOL well i'm gonna go cause i'm really tired. here is a song that mostly relates to me about Ben haha

    Addicted by Kelly Clarkson

    It's like you're a drug
    It's like you're a demon I can't face down
    It's like I'm stuck
    It's like I'm running from you all the time
    And I know I let you have all the power
    It's like the only company I seek is misery all around
    It's like you're a leech
    Sucking the life from me
    It's like I can't breathe
    Without you inside of me
    And I know I let you have all the power
    And I realize I'm never gonna quit you over time

    It's like I can't breathe
    It's like I can't see anything
    Nothing but you
    I'm addicted to you
    It's like I can't think
    Without you interrupting me
    In my thoughts
    In my dreams
    You've taken over me
    It's like I'm not me
    It's like I'm not me

    It's like I'm lost
    It's like I'm giving up slowly
    It's like you're a ghost that's haunting me
    Leave me alone
    And I know these voices in my head
    Are mine alone
    And I know I'll never change my ways
    If I don't give you up now

    It's like I can't breathe
    It's like I can't see anything
    Nothing but you
    I'm addicted to you
    It's like I can't think
    Without you interrupting me
    In my thoughts
    In my dreams
    You've taken over me
    It's like I'm not me
    It's like I'm not me

    I'm hooked on you
    I need a fix
    I can't take it
    Just one more hit
    I promise I can deal with it
    I'll handle it, quit it
    Just one more time
    Then that's it
    Just a little bit more to get me through this
    I'm hooked on you
    I need a fix
    I can't take it
    Just one more hit
    I promise I can deal with it
    I'll handle it, quit it
    Just one more time
    Then that's it
    Just a little bit more to get me through this

    It's like I can't breathe
    It's like I can't see anything
    Nothing but you
    I'm addicted to you
    It's like I can't think
    Without you interrupting me
    In my thoughts
    In my dreams
    You've taken over me
    It's like I'm not me
    It's like I'm not me

Monday, 05 February 2007

  • Currently Listening
    Trouble
    By Akon
    Lonely
    see related

    life

    Well apparently all of my friends hate me now because I was acting different, Sorry but I've had alot to deal with and I'm like that when I'm super stressed which doesn't happen that much..... I guess they hate me cause to them it seemed like I was pushing them away and i'm not and I didn't mean it to seem that way.. so I am sorry!!

Monday, 25 December 2006

  • Currently Listening
    Konvicted
    By Akon
    Smack That
    see related

    Who knew Christmas could be so depressing and happy all at once, happy....Well i don't have to explain that. Depressing because it was almost   family dinner the only one missing was Shaun, It's days like this that are hard because my family is broken with Shaun being in prision and Kyle is in GA. now but he his home for the holidays, and next year he possibly goes over seas so next Christmas will be even more empty. well here is some pictures from yesterday and today....

    Me
    100_4021

    My Lil' Big brother Mike, Me and Kyle
    100_4020
    Kayla and Exie
    100_4022

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